I struggle
Oh how I struggle
Only a few
Understand
Casual friends
And colleagues say
I’m sorry
For your loss
But the real loss
Started long ago
At birth
I think
I wanted someone
To adopt me
Because I knew
I had been dropped
Down the wrong chimney
I need to
Mourn her
But anger remains
Because I cannot
Be sorry
For my loss
At the beginning
Don’t be sad for me
Now